Wednesday, February 25, 2009

BFF

Well, last night I spoke to my High School BFF whom I hadn't spoke to in 13 years!?!?!? After Junior College we kind of parted ways, she went off to College and I stayed home and went to a local college. I met Husband during College and when I spoke to her about Husband I unknowingly filtered much of the information and mostly spoke of the things that were wrong and included nothing that was positive. My theory is she probably couldn't understand why I would want to stay with this guy, and if I had heard only what I had told her, I would've thought the same. That's my guess as to why we split as friends even further. It's a guess......but I always knew Husband had a good heart, and he still does.

After the 1.5 hour phone call I lay in bed thinking of a few embarrassing things that happened while we were BFF in High School (ughh......don't want to even go through one of them), but also the many fun times we had which way out-weighed the negatives. She and I were inseparable in High School. Although we hadn't spoken for years, I felt that pang in my stomach when she told me about the fall out with her husband. I even welled with some tears. Strange, I was so sad that she was hurt even though I hadn't talked to her in so long.

I have now learned that people are in your life for a reason, some to stay, some to not stay and I'm o'kay with that. Perhaps we'll meet up in the future, perhaps not, but it was sure good to talk with her!

Big day tomorrow! Fashion Show at pre-school! My little starlet is so excited to walk on the TABLE....errrr 'runway'!!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Failure

WOW! THAT was fast! You bet it was! I worked out on Friday afternoon, only to have Husband make fun of me when he came in and I was trying to work out.....oh, PLUS I weighed myself this morning....back up to the same poundage I was....life is beginning to suck in the working out/being athletic department.

First things first, I have done that Jillian 30 minute shred thing three times, my knees hurt for two days afterwards after each time. I'm not that heavy, but something about my knees isn't as forgiving as it used to be.

Saturday was filled with getting myself and the kids ready for my nephew's birthday party. Husband's assistance included getting the kid's shoes and hats on......my list consisted of waking up, taking out my neighbor's dogs, feeding the kids breakfast, feeding the dog, bathing the kids, giving the kids lunch, doing the dishes, playing with the kids, giving the kids lunch, putting both kids down for a nap (a very short nap), showering myself (fast - I may say), going next door again to let the dogs out, drying my hair over there as to not wake the sleeping kids .....in the mean time, Husband comes home from work, sits down on the couch......and rests.....and rests....I run back upstairs, finish getting dressed, put on makeup, wake up kids, gather clothing, dress them......you get the picture no? We're 45 minutes late to the party.....

The party was actually funner than they've been in the past. When you've got the youngest children at the party, everybody wants to pick them up.....up the stairs, at the top of the stairs, on the wood floor, on the furniture, etc. We were constantly on 'kid watch' (both ours and neices and nephews). It's not the other kids' fault, since they don't have younger siblings, or very young siblings....they don't understand being 'gentle'. I found myself being able to enjoy the party and my brothers a little more....doesn't take much though....

I was dead Sat. night, but still had to go next door to let the dogs out before the night was over, I kept falling asleep and Husband woke me after the kids watched a show. Note he didn't offer to go next door himself..... ::eye roll:: So I survived and let the dogs out at 10:00 pm and back to my couch where I watched SNL til 11:00 pm and wandered into bed around 1:30 am.....oh the exciting life I lead.

So needless to say, I didn't get much done on the working out schedule. And on Sunday I had no desire to be picked on by Husband. So I hope to get a double workout in today and head back to using neighbor's elliptical trainer machine.....

Handsome's party has been moved to a week before his actual birthday, with upcoming procedures on both myself and Handsome, he wouldn't have gotten a party until the end of April, and that's just not fair.....I took many horrible pictures trying to get one for his invitation.....No such luck today....

This was one of the best I got.....



Cute, but the boy doesn't look 'happy'......

Tomorrow is another day.....

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Hello Again!

Well, I've avoided you for too long I see. I am back. I hope in full force.

I have yet again started a 'new me' program....It consists of NOT stuffing my face and trying to work out at least 4 times a week, this includes walking/jogging the dog, and my new found exercise buddy, ON Demand exercise. I've been wandering around this 2 Weeks To A New You choice and I've tried several of the workouts, even doubled up on some and even tripled. Don't get too excited, some of the workouts are only 10 minutes long! But the big deal is today, I've printed myself out the Two Week Plan for the 2 Weeks, New You. I think I can even start tomorrow as it's Friday and I can get in that 30 minute work-out plan with Jillian Michael's (you know, of TV's Biggest Loser).

I am really trying to keep my promise of losing those last 10 pounds, which sadly means getting my bootie in gear and exercising off the weighted thighs and booty. Now, mind you 10 pounds doesn't sound like a lot, but I know my body used to be 'BAM!' Nice abs, nice booty (big, but nice), muscular thighs. Chestal area....not so much BAM, sort of a "HUH?".

So having begun this weird 'diet' of sorts 2 weeks ago, I am at the 'thin' portion of my monthly grind. I weighed myself and I was down 3 pounds from where I started. I'm not holding me to that, as I know I'll gain most of it back in a week. So I need to get down 7.5 more pounds. That is my goal.

At least 2 weeks ago, I purchased a 12 pack of beer ......just for me. I have had several days where I promise myself I can have a beer, however, I first must get things done, such as feed kids lunch, check in at work, do work, do laundry, clean something, set up an appointment, etc. by the end of the day, I don't get that beer and even if I remember close to the end of the night....it's simply NOT worth it to me. Sad, I think that's a sign of being older, even beer has to wait. So the 12 pack remains unopened. What a sad state of affairs?!!? Then, another thought comes to mind.......everyone deserves a good night out don't they? Girls night out hasn't been the same group, nor have we been 'out'. Lots of 'home' parties in Jan and Feb. ..... too many really. I'm still broke! One more to go, then we're hopefully done and can get down to cheap nights with lots of laughs!

Weee!.......? Tomorrow I begin!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Just Do It!

This is going to be my motto this year. Like a bolt of lightening, it hit me the other day. Don't say I'm going to (insert well intended, but no follow through thought here).....instead..... Just Do It. New Year's Eve I ran around getting many things done. Things that I should've done earlier this month, this year, whatever the case. I'm hoping this sticks with me. I got so much done, I truly had a blank slate for the New Year (almost as I forgot to send a receipt to our insurance 'credit' card for expenses and a gift receipt to my niece). BUT I am not including the things I think of to remember that I actually forget to do.....I know that's weird but you know how you think of something and then start to go do it and forget what you went there for? Well, with 2 kids, a Husband and a dog in the house, that quest can abruptly turn into a request for water, milk, dog feeding, a toy, or helping going potty. So some items were forgotten, but that's minimal for a New Year.

I just realized my Husband does not request much from me......really. He doesn't mention that I've been horrible at housekeeping or cooking (actually I recently got a compliment on an awesome stew I made!!! KUDOS to me!). So, I guess I'm grateful for that. I think my neglect of household duties put a strain on things and I think, or at least feel I'm off to a good start this year. Granted, it's only January 2nd. But hey, I takes what I can get!

I had my family over for the New Year, my folks, brother, sister-in-law and neighbor (I'm her Illinois family! ::wink::) I didn't clean like a mad woman, but made it suitable for all. There are things to do still, as I'm not a miracle worker. BUT, the new toys have homes and the pile (please notice no "s" at the end of the word pile) of paper is workable. I remembered that you'll always have a to-do list, just make sure you keep accomplishing things to check off of that list. Husband got me an electronic 'grocery list' for Christmas. It's actually quite nice, although it seems to me, there's always something to be gotten or that's been forgotten. But I guess that's just like life, there's always something to do.

I hope to take down the Christmas decoration this weekend. The kids will really miss them. It was just such a fun year! They loved their toys. I will post some pictures soon, I am being held captive at work today........

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Wow.!.. .or is it Whoah?!?!

I'm trying to figure out if I'm in a downward emotional spiral because I am unable to keep my house remotely picked up since Sweet Pea's birthday or if it's your typical holiday let down. The tables are packed, or at least WERE packed with stuff, lots of stuff, yesterday. I managed to devote most of the day to cleaning up and putting away a lot of things, but there was still a lot of CRAP! Mostly the dining room table is covered with opened gifts (....read as numerous little-pieced toys by evil present givers. These are the people that should be locked in a closet along with those that give loud, noisy toys too) that do not have a home.....

Having felt overwhelmed since, well, since a couple months after Handsome was born, I think I hit my wall. Cleaning yesterday was very therapeutic, although with the kids playing as I was cleaning, I still didn't get much done. But I managed to get one table cleared (and not hidden), four loads of laundry done, dog pooped picked up (that was an hour - yeah for melted snow!), Sweet Pea's gift connected to the internet..cute web site, PixieHollow.com. Someone did not read the age appropriate for a gift and had to see what it was about. Definitely for girls ages 7 and over, girls who are 4.....not so much..... Progress, not perfection. But come ON PUH-LEASE!!!! Give a Momma a break! I'm torn between feeling fine and feeling like that little bubble on the commercial that bounces along that's sometimes sad, the things that once made me happy (other than my kids) don't (at least all the time), being easily distracted, etc., etc. I think I'm alright though....although I'm sure Husband would give an all together different perspective.....but this isn't his blog is it?!?!

Speaking of whom, he actually scored a positive on the gift giving chart and purchased an i-pod thingy for my car so I can tune in my music. I love it and now I still need to download the rest of my CD's so I can get rid of our space hogging CD player, CDs and whatever else equipment we have in the cabinet upstairs and turn it into a full-fledged toy hut....just so current toys can have an 'out of site' home.

The whole holiday was a whirl-wind and it's not over yet. My Brother is in from out of town with New Wife and we still have to get together with them!

Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the Day After Christmas, the kids were up until about 11:00 pm each night. There schedules are screwed and poor Handsome has one of those 'waterfall booger' colds! So last night I was up with him from 3-4:30 am, and finally I got tired enough, he couldn't get comfortable, so I put him in his bed, said nigh nigh and crashed. But not before he wailed a little while. Who wouldn't want to leave Momma's arms? I felt so bad, but I was so tired. It's one of those colds where the boogies just back up in the back of your throat, and unless you're an adult and can hack those babies out....you kind of hack and choke on them....it's awful to listen to.......my poor poor baby.... With all these late nights and presents, Sweet Pea isn't so 'sweet' more demanding and crabby......yesterday I think we started back on the course to wellness. How do people with more than two kids do it??!?!?!?!? Although, I would love another myself! Even on bad day!!!!! The smiles and sweetness way out-weigh the snottiness.

2009 is fast approaching...I just need to hang onto this part-time gig for a few more years! Shhhhhh! Don't tell Husband! I have to do a major over-haul on my budget though this coming year (My Christmas shopping was very eye-opening! It didn't sotp me from spending, but it was eye-opening!). I hope to get a few extra hours of work here and there in the summer.....we'll see! As long as I don't lose the job!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Almost Here!

Yes, Christmas is almost here. My two tables in my house are piled up with crap. Remember when I said I was a 'pile-er'. I wasn't kidding. Sweet Pea's birthday gifts are still left on one of the tables. The other is stacked with bills, papers, receipts, and I'm sure a couple sippy cups....Husband hates coming home to that, and I have to admit, it's to the point where something needs to be done.....so, that's what I'll be doing this weekend.....I know, it's only Monday.

Here's what I did get done this weekend. In a fast furry, I got cards done. **NOTE** This means thank you cards for Sweet Pea's birthday AND quick addressing of envelopes for this picture to go out with it!
My wonderfully awesome niece came over for four hours so I could shop (also Husband) on Saturday. Big SMOOCHES for that!!!!! I got about 90% of the shopping done. WOW, does it make a difference to do all the shopping in a shorter amount of time!!! I really saw how much I spent and I can't believe it was that much.....I didn't even go CRAZY!!! Wow!!! So not looking forward to later years. Or bills to come in.....

Handsome was a toughie to buy for this year.......there's just so much that he has and already plays with!!!! Definitely a motivator to get out and 'clean out' the baby toys in the basement.

Other than that, it's freezing here.....literally! I looked at my remote thermometer at 5:00 am this morning and it read 2.2 degrees. When Mom arrived, it read .6 degrees. Winter has come fast and furious this time around! The wind just blows, I mean that literally too! Although it is not to the point where it is taking my breath away......yet.....

Yesterday, I forced myself to take Sweet Pea to Sunday School and went back for church. I am bummed that typical attendees from our family are my Mom, myself and my daughter. Handsome is just breaking out of his two nap a day schedule, so he may be joining us soon....With the new pastor in his 2nd year, our church is more barren than last. It's sad. I've got many things to say about that, but not here. This is my biatch blog about my Husband, so let's get back to him.

I was told that once again, my list for Christmas lacked 'interesting' things. Too bad, just follow the list. Times Husband did not follow the list, I received roller blades, and a few other items I can't recall that I use just as much..... :: eye roll::

Girls night out occurred this past weekend. It was fun, although there was a new attendee and although I met her a couple times, I think I may have offended her during a password game. I just dont' think she was used to my facial gestures.......I was the oldest in attendance......the next oldest person was the 'new girl' and I thought there was at least a connection as we had the same birthday, a year apart, but still.....how weird is that? i thought I could detect some similarities....we both liked to jump into conversations and get our stories/comments in! Ha!

I tortured myself and jumped on the scale this morning.....up a pound.....I am committed to the weight loss plan and am re-affirming my resolve to lose all that I want to by March 21st.....
I have to tell myself this as three of the next 5 days will be food, family and food.....Today was bring a dish day to work.....THAT did not help with the plan either. Although, I have avoided the lunch room for the rest of the day! Baby steps, think baby steps!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Santa Nightmare

Yep, the $8.00 visit with Santa was 1/2 nightmare! The food was fine the atmosphere was less to be desired. Sweet Pea didn't win the raffle for one of four bikes and she didn't get her face painted or a balloon....Put that all together and one major meltdown ordered up! Next year will be totally different! We're going for the nice place that has plenty of activities and I'm also going to take Nana or Husband with me. The people around me were less than nice...I was miserable! Sweet Pea was miserable! Will post more later!

Thank goodness Sunday's Christmas Pageant at church more than made up for it! I have the next Tot American Idle Contestant for sure!!!!!

Must go deliver nuts for work, but had to give a briefing!