Anxiety filled times

Well, let's just say I am not the brightest crayon in the coloring box. That Miller Analogy test was killer. My brain certainly wasn't ready after being up with Handsome for half the night prior, but I did it. I can, and will likely take the test again. I am too embarrassed to give my score, so I'm not going to.

I did take the Basic Skills Test on Feb. 13th and they say it was about a four week turnaround to find out my results. That is a test I must pass. Then I have to take a content area test. I'm giving myself a break to see how I've did on the Basic Skills. The house is in disarray at the moment. Husband is deathly afraid the school will be cutting back on his hours which totals quite a bit of money per year. That smoking habit comes to mind to eliminate some of that cost, but just as I had gotten over being worried and having the attitude of we'll deal with it when we get there and he throws what if I don't' have a job, we need 6 months of savings in case one of us lose a job. Well, I didn't have the heart to tell him that would be about $24K (that's if we both lost our jobs at the same time mind you). We certainly do not have that available in savings. I even took into consideration the cost of COBRA insurance, and I even guessed at $1000 per month for the family. Just thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. Like many others for sure.

I keep holding onto the thought if my grandparents and his grandparents made it through the Great Depression, then we do what we can to get through this! We've got some strong genes for sure!

The only good side is that we're a bit busier than normal at work, so I've got some extra cash, albeit a little, coming in. I had told Husband that he'd have to get a weekend job if they took his weekend building checks a day. Otherwise I would have to find a job somewhere, and he would have to provide the Daddy Daycare. He just thinks I need to get back on full time pay ASAP. He quickly forgets that the money I'd make on full time, would ALL be eaten by the cost of daycare......oh how quickly we forget.

Husband took Sweet Pea and Handsome out after a 'good packing snow' and made a perfect snowman. No joke, check out this perfection!

Husband gets a gold ribbon for that afternoon! After a long day at work (due to the snow), I had to get soem work done at the library. Husband woke up Handsome, got both kids dressed, and made this object of polar perfection in 60 minutes! Bravo! They all need their egos boosted, don't they! ::wink:: I definitely want to make sure he'll do that again! Although he did snap off some branches of my walking bush for the arms! Grrrrrr!

So we've begun the plans for Handsome's 3rd Birthday Party! OMG! 3! He's just growing so fast! He so into Spider Man. I guess he just thinks he looks totally cool, because prior to Christmas, we never even watched Spiderman (which is a little too old for him and scares Sweet Pea to watch,.....or was it Scooby Doo that scared her with the ghosts.....).

In that respect, he's such a boy! Diego, Spongebob (I know, we're a commercial for Nickelodeon and Disney), oh, and there is a new show that he loves, can't think of the name now, but the little boy is called Geo. Oh, Team Umizoomi. It's a cute show. I think the voice of the robot is the guy from Blues Clues, not Steve, the other one, Joe. Whatever makes 'em happy right?

We are in the abyss of winter with spring taunting us from afar.....not really, but it just feels like it. I can't wait to get outside and play! Winter boredom has definitely set in. I could be a good mom and check the net for things to do, but by the time I do that, then I have to go and buy crap to do a new project. Not interested.

Oh, I still have to find time to read for my two classes that I'm signed up for at BYU....anyone want to help out with that!??!

Busy Times

Yep, another busy post. why is it that when I need to procrastinate the least is when I settle in, hunker down and want to blog about it?!

I'm anxiously awaiting my scores for the Miller Analogies test I took a couple weeks ago. Either I relax, a bit, or I really have to move my a$$ and get my classes done. I have realized, of course only now that I'm old, that in order to retain information I've read, I have to have the room completely quiet. No kids talking, no background TV, nothing. Perhaps this 'study style' would've helped me in High School.....perhaps.....we'll see how well I do with these two courses. I have that Basic Skills test coming up, so I can always perform crappy on that and be two for two on my test-taking abilities!!

I'm think of new projects for my week off next month, only to realize, I have no money. I've got a lot of ways to spend money, but not enough money to spend. That's another complaint at a later date. I've been hit with another tax increase to boot this month, either I spread it out, or I pay it up now.....What are the politicians doing with my money anyways?!?!? I've had to take pay cuts and such, what's with that?! When will they?! I'm irritated by the whole thing. I think I've decided to be an independent voter. Vote for the best candidate. I will truly try to not be politically pulled in one direction, although it is quite hard not to.

Today, I had lunch with some co-workers and a woman who's husband is a lot like mine.....he's a co-worker who wasn't at lunch, but I so hope I'm not like her in another 5 years. It was comical, but she also seems to have quite a crabby husband at home. I kept thinking, OMG! This will be me in 5 years! It was a moment that was a good teaching tool. I really don't want that to be me and Husband.

However I also remembered I saw a show last week that depicted the first half of marriage as lying in bed(after the honeymoon phase of course) you look over and say "Good God, you're still here?!" The second half of the marriage you look over and say "Thank God you're still here".

Miller's Analogies

It took me two days to tell Husband that he must've married me for my beauty! It certainly wasn't for money, nor was it for brains. This was confirmed via taking that Miller's Analogies test this past Sat. I'm am not out, boy boy am I down from taking that thing. I was smiling at the end of taking it, because it is what it is.......I hope to find out how bad I did in a couple weeks, they say in 4-6 weeks you'll receive your score, but the person providing the test said sometimes it's as early as 2-3. Great, I'll know I'm an idiot even sooner.

Some may think I'm being hard on myself, but really, you don't know me. When I took the ACT in High School and got a terrible score, my Mom said "You can take it again honey". So I did. I took it again, I got the EXACT SAME SCORE. I'm writing it off as being a horrible test taker, I will not accept that I'm just that stupid.

Yesterday I started my Sociology Class on line. The first page of Lesson 1 told me to read Chapter One of my text book. So, I did. I like what I read, I stink at retaining it.

I somehow have to shake off this negativity, otherwise I firmly believe you are what you preach........So, I'm smart, I'm beautiful and gosh darn it, people like me!

Estimated Start Date

What's that, have I started my classes since I've received my books? Is there an estimated start date. Well, that's tough. I could start the class on-line right now, but I think I'll be hindered by a 5 year old who probably doesn't need to rest any more, at least most of the time, but I guess I'm still hopeful or dreaming.

I've accomplished acquiring a 3-ring binder for my book, it looks fabulous, and purchased ink for my printer. I'm not trying to make excuses, it's cold in the basement today. Have I mentioned I hate the computer down here? I need it upstairs and I need it now. I'd love a lap top. That'd be so cool.

Tomorrow I take the Miller Analogies test that is required for acceptance into the MAT Program I'm applying for......I printed a study guide, which I reviewed a portion of a couple weeks ago and it seems to be a test that deals with comparisons of some sort. One of those, 'should be a no brainer' but I'll stink at it. So, I'm not so into jumping into starting my courses tonight until I take this thing tomorrow. So, that's where I'll be at 10am for an hour or so. All the previous 'bs' I just spewed is to inform you that my brain is preoccupied with taking this test. So I guess my official 'start' date is tomorrow. I promise, today won't be wasted. I'll review the study guide.

Did I mention that Husband finally asked how much this is going to cost. I told him around $15K (that includes free baby sitting from my folks). He was shocked. ::rolling eyes:: Guess he though it was going to be for free. He's soooooo, supportive.